every little thing ; .

Friday, November 23, 2007

bie tie dao...nelson

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

sorry ppl.
its back to the emo nelson
just heard some really bad news..
thx for making my already bad week worst.
o man u rock =)

fuk

great. just continue like tt. perhaps one day i'll have enuf reason to give it all up.

7:02 AM
alone?

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

hmm. i shall blog in eng. o this blog's supposed to be hidden.
anw this is ripped from FIONA's BLOG..cos my situation has always been similar to hers? and she's a GREAT blogger. :)

The nightmare that I've been trying to escape from.

I hate myself for being weak, for being in the state that I am today. Why is it so hard for me to let go, for me to forget? But for certain things, it's not up to us to choose whether or not we forget. In fact, sometimes, the more we try, the harder it is to forget.

Sometimes I question if it's worth it. Two years of suffering, and all for that one month of beauty? The thing is, I don't even know how long this pain will continue to last. The silence between us is unbearable, and makes me even more miserable. The gap between us grows bigger day by day, and in fact, I see no evidence in your life today that I was once a part of your life. What happened to the promises you made me? To always be with me, no matter what could happen in the future? That I could always count on you being there?

It took me a lot of courage before I made an attempt to repair this wreck last night. But after going through all that nerves, what happens next? I didn't hear from you, nothing at all. Here I am, fighting so hard, but it seems like you don't even care.

Maybe to you, I am but a stranger. A stranger who was once a big part of your life, whom you truly treasured, but whom you've forgotten by now. Whom you've left behind in your past. Today, when we pass each other on the streets, we don't even say hello. It's almost as though we never once met, never once talked, never once shared that memory that was so beautiful to hold. If only I could say the same thing for you in my life. Good riddance to bad rubbish, one that brings me so much pain? You don't even have to do anything, don't even have to say a word to me, yet you can make me cry. And then after I'm done I get angry with myself and wonder why I even ought to waste my tears over someone like you.

I look forward to the day when I have no more tears to cry over you, and am able to embrace our memory without shaking, without falling apart. To the day when I can finally walk away from your shadow in my life and walk on, this time, without you by my side. Walk on free, without the shadow of our past coming back to haunt me, to pull me back, to hinder my progress. To the day when I can finally talk about you and say,

"Hey, that's all in the past. I'm thankful for that beautiful experience, but now I'm ready to make more of such beauty again...this time, with people whom I know will really stay for my sake".

But till that day, I'll be waiting..and crying whenever I'm reminded of our past.
A question nags at the back of my head, "Should I even bother?"
And now, with your presence there but not here, I'm wondering if I should try again.
But deep inside, a part of me is afraid to face this bravely. To handle this and clear up the entire issue once and for all. Because if I don't do anything, you'll still be in my life, and I can still hold on to the hope that maybe someday, just maybe, you'll come back. But if I do something, it could possibly be goodbye forever.
Am I ready to say goodbye to your shadow in my life?

o_O

10:36 PM
alone?

好烦
好气
好闷

期望，
失望，
绝望。

等待与期待。

haish
(o_O) mlm.

7:07 AM
alone?

Monday, November 19, 2007

别告诉我。。又再一次冷却了？
好累好累了，难道我真的是自作多情？
不想看得太远，要不然，我怕我就连爬着走都不敢。

换换爱所说的。。
我不想有什么期望，没期望，就不会失望。不是吗？
我想这也许是对得。
因为没期望，若你有再一次不理我，至少我不会那么难过。
若你忽然向我回音，至少那是我一时的幸运。
很悲观是吧？
这就是nelson o_O

可能，
幸福与智深，
根本不配

:'(

6:37 AM
alone?

Monday, November 12, 2007

又多一次的
一场欢喜一场空。

谢谢你。

晴天娃娃的神奇，我始终还相信，希望我能坚强。

6:57 AM
alone?

Saturday, November 10, 2007

最后一线希望
用卫生纸揉出晴天娃娃
为他
画上笑的嘴巴
把雨滴
赶走吧
赶走吧

7:39 AM
alone?

突然觉得难过
只是因为听一首歌
听这一首歌
像是你对我的寄语

也许是我多心
总在猜测你话语间的声音
一个声音说
不要再留恋曾经的赋予

过去的都已是过去
我只能做回我自己
只能做回我自己

是爱已经是沙漠
而秋天也已来临
阳光落在身上
暖暖的很惬意

haish.

7:36 AM
alone?

断了的弦...再怎么连?
我沉默..but
你的话也不多
问你决定了再走
我了解离开树的叶
属于地上的世界凋谢

i only wish tt 你的改变我能够分辨

6:44 AM
alone?

Monday, November 5, 2007

狂胜之中我却黯然语带悲伤
是我在哭
不停犯错
不停推拖
养了一堆籍口等它成熟
前一秒说是朋友
后一秒诬赖我

6:19 AM
alone?

选择我受够了。
我不是一个玩具啦。
每天过着这钟一场欢喜一场空的生活。。。快把逼疯了。
seriously i dunno how long i can last.
it all seems so perfect..and cynical me is here ranting.
他们全都帮不上忙。。
最美的场面，我都得装。
sick of this pretence game. wtf.

你要不就让我死，
不然就让这场恶梦别再继续。
its a fact, and i really wan to get it right.

一年前的这一个选择，
我到现在都看不出有什么利益。

6:08 AM
alone?

Sunday, November 4, 2007

这样下去，我迟早会疯。
fuck.

7:54 AM
alone?

Saturday, November 3, 2007

翻开随身携带的记事本
写着许多事都是关於你
你讨厌被冷落
习惯被守候
寂寞才找我
我看见自己写下的心情
把自己放在卑微的后头
等你等太久
想你泪会流
而幸福快乐是什么
爱的痛了
痛的哭了
哭的累了
日记本里页页执着
记载着你的好
像上瘾的毒药
它反覆骗着我
矛盾心里总是强求
劝自己要放手
闭上眼睛让你走
烧掉日记重新来过
说我是笨的吧
可能是在逃避
好辛苦
又是我想太多？

9:13 AM
alone?